Interesting, I missed that. Anyways, while I think this is an important piece of info, we're still talking about porn rather than sex. There's a difference between exploring with an also-awkward person your age and watching someone else do things they don't actually enjoy while making noises they don't really make, in positions that are more obnoxious than fun, making it look more desirable than it really is.
I get this because that's how I discovered sex - just like every other human for the last however-many-million-years.
This is the first time you're getting dozens, maybe hundreds of hours of watching someone do it arguably "wrong".