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1. s5300+(OP)[view] [source] 2022-11-24 20:21:57
Today, as will be spent laying on the cold & hard ground of a floor in the high desert of Cali - maybe with a warm cup of tea - I find myself thankful for the freely accessible intellectual stimulation on HN, which has played a major part in (mostly) keeping my sanity for quite some time now (think I found this place in 2012, never felt need for account tho), while essentially bedridden. Though I often find some of you on here to be a bit ghoulish, the site is most definitely a net positive for me.

Thankful for my few friends - of all I’d intentionally pushed away, as to not have them witness my medical condition rapidly deteriorate the me they knew - who have continued to care about me, & attempt stay in my life.

Thankful I can still piss as biology intended, & that I’m not in a wheelchair or similar mobility device. Sorry for the crassness of this remark for those who can’t & do need said devices, but either of those two for me, & I would soon take exit of our life.

Now over half of my young life completely encompassed by extreme pain, discomfort, & debilitating symptoms. Career path likely irreparably derailed, despite hard earned full ride scholarships. Doctors who didn’t give a fuck until it was near too late, & now more doctors who still mostly don’t give a fuck.

Be thankful for your health & able body if you have it. For those who do, I advise making a plan, grounded in reality, as to whether or not you want to fight an unfathomably painful & endlessly hopeless battle, should one ever come your way - or to be at peace with the fate behest (is this a properly used word. I don’t know, too much brain fog right now) you, & a plan to leave our world in the most comfortable way. Before slowly watching your life’s achievements fade away into nothingness, & you/your friends having to watch you wither away into nothing more than the most physically & mentally fragile husk of who(m?) you once were.

Take care of your bodies, desk nerds. & should the need arise, seek treatment as early as possible, & use whatever means necessary to get it.

Edit: For visibility & my principles - though I am not one of them, I am very NOT thankful for the active culture war currently raging against the LGBTQ+whatever folk who live in our (US) country. Let them live their fucking lives, & de-platform the psychopaths trying to genocide them.

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