A sibling comment has mentioned this but the problem is with the terminology and how it manifests itself in your mind. You’ve mentioned it in your comment: trying to view light as a ripple or as air particles... light is neither of them, it’s a different thing entirely. Light exhibits certain properties that are wavish and particle-ish which is why it’s said to be both, technically. But trying to visualize light through analogies with phenomena in the macro world that you have intuition for is wrong. Mathematics is the only “eye” with which you can really understand light for what it is.