I've not seen this take yet, but this is exactly how I feel. I do not yet know what I want to do, and my parts of my personality are no longer satisfied by coding. I'm thinking we need some kind of community of people like us where we can discuss these things.
I bring these up with others, and I find that most people around me are just builders.
I think this is context dependent. Over time, within a single code base or ecosystem, incompatibilities between "close enough" solutions can add up and create a lot of problems and complexity, kinda like floating point inaccuracies. Especially if you're not going back and revisiting the structure/abstractions you've already got when you're adding/changing something.
There's another angle too, which is that time taken to improve your abilities isn't necessarily irrational, especially because that improvement is usually applicable in many different ways. It can be an investment.